What am I doing?

My grandma died last Monday. She was sick for a very long time with high blood pressure and didn't really tell anyone until the damage to her heart was irreparable. She was the most godly, amazing, funny person I've ever known. She was so sensitive to the Holy Spirit that she would be brought to tears when she prayed over family meals. She (along with my other grandma) is the reason I want to be a good cook and baker. Her secret ingredient in everything she made was love.
So as I reflect on her life, I'm thinking about me and where my life is going with my family. We are a fun unit. But I'm in a holding pattern. I need to step up my business. I need to make some more money.
I need to read my Bible and pray every day. There's no better guide (for mind, body, and spirit) than that. So if I know that - to my core - why don't I do it?
I gave my blog the name "Five-Time Winner" to remind myself of how incredibly blessed I am. I'm healthy, strong, capable. Why haven't I gotten up a little early to read and pray. Why don't I sit down and make 10 phone calls to grow my business?

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. So far, I've eaten a South Beach Diet breakfast and WAY too many cookies...

I'll start my lifestyle change (not diet) at dinner with something deliciously balanced. I'll finish the house cleaning between now and 6:15 (when Mike gets home), I'll read my Bible (and pray while I clean and listen to worship music), and do full body pilates before I go to bed. That sounds productive, right?

What am I doing? See above list.

Day 1

My decision to write a blog surprises me more than anyone. I am a mother of five, wife, daughter, sister, friend with a LOT to process - like, I really want to get up at 6 to workout. I should call Carrie today. I should call Heather and Caroline today. I hope the boys have clean underwear and socks today. What am I going to make for dinner. I wonder what Grandma's oxygen saturation was this morning. So now I have a blogspot to keep things straight. We'll see how it goes.

Right now I'm sitting on the love seat while my husband, Michael, is sprawled out asleep on the couch. All the kids are in bed. Mom and Dad are asleep (Oh, the seven of us live with my parents), and I should be folding the laundry on my bed...well, you know what I'm doing.

Tomorrow I get to go to church with my family. There's nothing better...except maybe if our church were located on the beach...in the south of France...

Now I'm babbling.
Good Night.